Posted By Author on February 7, 2010


Baba was to leave for his lunch but I requested him to dictate poem of Mathew Arnold, which he recited at the gate while leaving Ashram for the Himalayas.  I have already mentioned the stanza earlier.  He then recited Rabindranath Tagore’s Epitaph on C.R.Das in Bengali and its translation in English as below:

Note: Prof. Dr. P.N. Wadodkar and Prof. R.B. Chandrakar, connoisseurs of languages, have done all rendering and translations in English of original Hindi, Bengali, Sanskrit script.

(Rendering in Roman script of Bengali: verse)
“Enechile shawthe kore antahin pran
Moroney tahai tumi kore gelo dan”

English translation by Shri Baba
“You brought on Earth eternal and
Infinite life force with you
When you departed from here
You gave all this vitality to the Nation.”

Baba was in a good mood. He then recited a Bengali poem by C.R.Das and its poetic translation in English.  I asked him who translated in English.  He laughed and told that it was not published anywhere.  After my insistence he dictated (most probably) his own translation in English as given below:

When my eyes can’t pierce through
And darkness prevails on
My heart and mind seek to and from
The pathless path forlorn
Whence thou flame thy golden light
In my ruling seat
They take the red that glittering bright
And find that all is lit
When my harp of heart doth fall
The string – it torn away
The flow of song loose melodies all
And tone its waving sway
Whence thou blow thy hollowed horn
To lend me the music rhyme
My heart saturates with sacred song
And soul with humming hymn

Baba would examine my writing and correct mistakes.   He was very meticulous probably to see that historic records were not distorted. (Remember that C.R.Das was Netaji’s political Guru.) Then he told, “In childhood Rabindranath Tagore wrote a poem in Bengali and showed its English translation to his father’s friend.  He changed one word.  Then another friend of his father showed the very poem to poet laureate Saudi.  He said, ‘ This poem has come through the heart of a genius but there is only one word which is odd ’ and he corrected it.  The word changed was same as originally written by Rabindranath Tagore.”

(Note in the diary: On 26th April 1966 at midday standing under a tree at the bank of pious river Mandakini near Okhimath, Uttarakhand, Shri Baba told all this and I wrote down, especially the poems which he would read and correct while I was writing.)

When Baba was at the peak of his anger he said, “Look here Suresh.  I was thinking of taking rest for a few days but now I can’t.  I shall have to procure money say within a month.”

After noon siesta, I cut and piled sufficient grass to spread on the floor of Baba’s hut.  In the evening Baba came out to look after cows.  New brown cow was not eating even wheat or chapatis. Baba told to apply mud to the ailing cow.  When he came to know that Rajat did not bring medicinal mud from Ashram he again gave vent to his anger.  I arranged to secure fodder from Chunni. After his meals all of us were first assembled outside his fencing.  He again poured his anger on all for not bringing mud and Dinudada’s disappearance, etc.  Then he asked Rajat about correspondence at the Ashram which he could not tell and hence off again. He took us inside.  Dinbandhu came.  He told him categorically that he would leave for Ashram next day. After exhausting his anger for more than half an hour he turned to me and said in sober voice, “Suresh, see the difference between the Indians and the British.  It is that out of ten thousand people one British man takes to spiritualism, he will seriously devote himself and his life but if ten thousand Indians take to spiritualism not one will be serious.” Baba turned to Ramanidada and gave him dictation on honesty of inner lie.  It was very good thought.  I have marked an asterisk in the diary but could not trace the note.  It is misplaced or lost. No. Later it was found in Ramanidada’s notebook and it is mentioned under the date 11/6/1966.


Baba’s mood changed.  It became sober and philosophical.  For one and half hour I was putting questions and he was answering.  On wealth he said, “The world has become full of Devilish money power.  Even if someone gives a few lakhs, it is with the motive of ego and self-publicity.  Miserly miser and so-called egoistic liberal are two phases of only one character.  One is after material gain the other mental profit.”  I said it was absolutely true and pointed out that because of it the present politics had become slave to that Devilish money power and hence independent benevolent execution had been impossible. He remarked that to some extent it was correct. I expressed my doubt that if it went on inflating, a bloody revolution would follow. He said even the poor had the same tendency.  Even if they get money they would succumb to the Devilish money power.  I observed that if the relative percentage was taken, the poor are more liberal.  He agreed and said it was true.  I expressed that by law the Devilish money power could be conquered.  He explained, “Then it will be also an arm of the Devil.  For that, change in Cosmos is necessary.  Then alone physical change will be of use.  I queried, “Baba in your eighteen years’ tapshcharya, may I ask whether you are seeing definite change in Cosmos?”  He replied, “Yes.  Surely it is there but it will take time to bring parallel change in intellect”.  He further said, “What is aspiration? It is intense desire minus attachment.  Seemingly it is fallacy but truth.  The aspirants are always rare”.  I asked him that initially some people were good but as they came in power they became Devilish and why it was so. He immediately quoted Lord Acton,’ Power tends to corrupt, and absolute power corrupts absolutely.’ He told that it was because they were not genuinely good at heart.  I quoted a simile of saint Dnyaneshwar who said man must live like canoe, which remains in water and yet is aloof from water.  Baba quoted a Sanskrit couplet, which gave parallel simile of lotus leaf.  I referred Indira Gandhi’s photo that appeared in Blitz.  In that she gave a pose like an actress holding sickle and bunch of wheat stems.  Baba roared, “Why all this show business.  I don’t understand. It is absolutely rotten. She is sending it to Gujarath or some deficient area.  This will not solve problems.”  Then I mentioned one day fast of Shastri.  He said that too was a farce.  If anybody wanted to do it, he should do it peacefully without publicity.  I observed that in spite of Shastri’s appeal, the defence fund might not have crossed four crore rupees. I question whether it was deplorable or not.  He said of course it was.  There were hundreds of persons in India who could have easily given five crore each.  I said then why it was not received.  He observed that a person who demands should have integrity, which was not seen in those days.  I mentioned Gandhiji’s maxim that if anybody slapped on one cheek, he should offer another.  Baba said this advice was of Christ and on that Swami Vivekananda had criticized and told to return ten to one.  This could not be said by all and sundry.  He then told a story of Ramakrishna Parmahansa.  One priest used to sacrifice a goat often. In old age he stopped.  When Ramkrishna asked him as to why did he stop.  He told that due to old age he had lost teeth and hence could not eat mutton.  The moral of the story according to Baba was that there should be sincerity of purpose.  There was no problem about the principle of tit for tat but the motive behind it should be good.


I referred R.S.S. organization. He opined, “Shri Golwalkar could really become a real ‘sadhak’.  If he was properly tackled he could be of a great value.  Only thing about him was narrow attitude of Hindu nation. In changing circumstances it was not digestible.  If anybody asked me the truth I would prefer to say that I was humanitarian to Hindu.”  He observed, “Our religion teaches the same.  The motive of Golwalkar and his followers was very good but means needed correction.”  I reminded that Shyamaprasad Mukherjee was first to bring R.S.S. people in politics.  Baba observed that Shyamaprasad too was Hindu-rule minded.  I expressed that Parliamentarians like Vajpayee were good and needed.  Baba exclaimed, “Who Atal Behari you mean.” I remarked that in England opposition was honoured and Baba agreed to that.  He then said that the Prime Minister and opposition leader received the same salary.  On vital and good issues they consult each other. I asked as to why it was not so in India.  Baba said that proper persons were not elected in India and they had no national interest.  They were after own interest and for that they came to even blows.  I then asked whether educated franchise was better.  Baba observed that in a way it was better but it would be unjust because the majority of masses was illiterate.  Even amongst them there were good and honest workers.  There was only one solution to the problem and that was to bring equilibrium in two factions and there must be a proper remedy to elect able men.  He said the solution was in his mind but would not reveal just then.  Then I asked him his assessment about Mahavir Tyagi.  Baba estimated him to be good and honest.  He might have had passed fourth or fifth class.  At the age of seventeen or eighteen he jumped into politics.  He was the singular person who would address Nehru in singular term as ‘tum’ instead of ‘aap’.  When asked about Ram Manohar Lohia Baba said that sometimes he spoke well studied and sometimes simply horrible. I expressed my anxiety about Lohia that whether he would run after a crust of bread (power) like Ashok Mehta.  Baba laughed and said could not say anything.  He said Lohia and Jayaprakash underwent lot of hardship for education.  Afterwards we had brief discussion on Yoga.  His mood became absolutely normal.  We entered his hut at 8 P.M. and it was 11.30 P.M. Dinbandhu was condoned with a warning that if he committed the same mistake again he would be required to go back to Ashram.  We left him and dined.  Slept.


Got up and wrote diary.  The priest of a neighboring temple at Guptakashi came.  As I told him he brought a three-month-old dog and then Baba engaged him in chat.  Baba called me and told that he named the dog as ‘Kolu’. (Kolu=Kalu)  He was playing with it.  All of us gathered and were enjoying play.  Baba would call it but when dog came near Baba he would run away not to allow Kolu to touch him and spoil his sanctity. It was a fun to watch him play. (From childhood Netaji had fancy to keep pets. Even in Singapore he had pets and menagerie.) The priest left.  I felt feverish and yet took bath.  All of us were having boils on exposed parts of legs due to bite of some tiny insect.


Baba came out and we were engaged in gossip.  From Satya Sai Baba we discussed existence of ghosts and whether that could be made to work to perform miracles for human beings.  Baba told a story of two such miracle performers who went to Dakshineshwar and Ramkrishna neutralized their art.  He described about aura of light behind head of the saint Ramkrishna.  Baba told a ghost story. “ Students went for a picnic in a castle near Oxford.  A student met a Lord of Elizabethan era. (Elders and servants would relate ghost stories to boy Subhash.)  He did not take tea, cigarette or liquor.  While leaving a room, student remarked to the seven feet tall Lord that the doors there were very dwarf.  The Lord said it did not matter and took his head in hand and walked out.”  Baba observed that ghosts rarely acquire human forms.  We had a long chat on Ghosts and I told him as to how even Jim Corbett described unbelievable phenomenon in the Himalayas.  After that I went to Baba’s hut to spread boiled and dried grass on the floor.  While doing that by mistake I put a foot on his six inches raised sleeping platform to replace a stone. Smilingly, Baba pointed out my mistake.  Then dry leaves were burnt on that spot and sanctified.  Even in our huts we were supposed to sleep without pointing our feet towards his hut.  After that I sprinkled water on the floor and queried about some points of meditation.  He said that we would talk about it at night.  He told me to read Radhakant’s letter.  After listening to about six lines he stopped me and told to make a draft of a letter to him in Hindi and another to Ramkrishnaji.  He gave points.  I was the only person except Baba who could write in Hindi.  I was restless. I returned to our hut with severe temperature. I slept without food.  In the evening Ramanidada examined me.  Baba sent Shomu time and again to inform him about my condition.  On his advice a layer of hot medicinal clay was laid around my neck.  The procedure was to hold the pot of clay in both hands, close eyes, say prayer and then apply mud.  Then black pepper seeds were fried in ghee and were given to me for eating.  I was forced to take food.  At about eleven in the night I sweated like a pig and temperature plummeted. (Netaji used to take Ayurvedic medicines.)

I did not take bath but changed clothes.  Baba told Shomu to purchase a bucket for me so that in early morning I would be able to take wash and perform meditation.  A draft of letter to Radhakant was sent to me in Bengali. I translated it in Hindi.  It was very severe caustic.  Then I went to see Baba.  He was outside. We occupied a place under a shady tree.  I read out the letter written to Radhakant and suggested that he be given a chance to explain.  At my request he was excused.  He said that it was useless.  He would repeat the old rubbish.  Then he dictated a telegram to him ordering him to reach the camp by Wednesday.  I was allowed to go and rest.  Shyamlal Pradhan of Chunni came.  Baba sent message that he would meet him after his lunch and so Shyamlalji waited till then.  As per custom I offered him snacks and tea.

At midday Baba came out and occupied his folding tin chair under tree. Shyamlal and I were seated in front of him.  He talked with Shyamlal in general.  Then I was told that before election lots of promises were given by leaders and after it none ever materialized.  The development was always with an eye on votes.  He then said that Guptakashi region was badly in need of improvement.  He said he visited Govind Vallabh Pant’s place in Kumaon.  There was lot of development there.  He told a story of a superintending engineer who tried to befool Pant for own promotion.  He paid bribe to the driver and stage-managed fake failure of Pant’s car and took him to lavish lunch at a Dak Bungalow.  He said Pratap Singh Kairon was son of a poor father.  He struggled hard to take education in U.S.A.  He was the best administrator but unfortunately power corrupted him.  He added that Chavan (Y.B.) was foolishly honest person.  He could be moulded. C.D.Deshmukh was out and out honest and efficient person. Nehru could not answer his questions.

Baba then commented on Nehru, “He allowed scoundrels to be around him just to see that party was not disrupted. Nehru was a queer combination of greatest greatness and meanest meanness. ‘In this confused world, I am the most confused man’-this single statement was more than enough to prove his greatness.  Such words could not come out of an ordinary man.”  I pointed out that at the time of partition and Chinese accession of Tibet, Nehru’s mistakes were grave and a great loss to the Nation, which was irreparable.  Baba said, “Indeed a great loss but cannot say irreparable.  Of course country will have to pay great price for it.”  Then he referred Vijayalaxmi’s sentence, “Why second rate persons are taken as ministers both in present and past when there is no dearth of first rate persons in this country.”  I observed whether she was saying so because she did not have had any significant portfolio.  Baba said, “ She should not have spoken so after the death of Nehru.  Had she spoken during his lifetime then it would not have mattered.   Suresh, mind it that she has done some sincere work of a great value.  I will quote her example of Second War. During war Churchill spoke to Roosevelt that India was a great burden to England.  Vijaya explained facts to Roosevelt and brought it to his notice as to how India was usurped of its wealth and manpower by England.  Roosevelt sent his confidential person to India to verify the truth.  Then Roosevelt was convinced that Churchill spoke a white lie.  He told Churchill to see his ambassador in U.K. Churchill felt it very insulting.  America was on the verge of withdrawing from the war but Churchill met the ambassador and Mrs. Roosevelt mediated.” Baba then left for his bath and meals.  I took my meals and had a brief breather.

Baba called me at 3.30 P.M. and told me to direct work without physical exertion as I had fever recently.  Then adjoining his hut below a tree in the courtyard, a platform was constructed as his seat.  The whole thing was beautiful.  At 6.30 P.M. Baba came out of his meditation to witness work.  It was going on.  Baba took me aside and began talking. He said, “What psychologists call as a sixth sense is a jumble of many things which cannot be described but experienced.” Then we discussed this and philosopher Emanuel Kant. He then turned on politics. He had extraordinarily high opinion about Rajendra Prasad.  He said that somebody observed that our political President was more philosopher than our philosopher Vice President and it was true.  He mentioned that Rajendra Prasad very much opposed the Hindu Code Bill. He and Nehru had many skirmishes. Baba said Radhakrishnan’s English was superb but as a politician—and Baba twisted his face.  Then some discussion on judiciary went on. Baba said, “Rao was first representative of India to the United Nation Organisation.  He was formerly Sessions Judge.  In one murder case he expressed, “I could see the murder and the murderer in the mirror but by law I was helpless.’ Care must be taken to see that innocents are not punished.  The dacoits committed murder of a man in an inn in England.  The people saw the innkeeper removing a dagger from the dead.  He was crying that he was innocent till he went to the gallows.  After three years the dacoits were arrested in another case and sent to gallows.  One of them said near the gallows that what funny law England had.  He confessed that he killed a man and an innocent innkeeper was hanged.  From that time England opened its eyes.  In our country also there is a defective law.  Justice delayed is justice denied.  Suresh, in this country poor cannot get justice.  He cannot stand expenses of High Court and Supreme Court.  It is impossible.  In assemblies and parliament most uncultured and unpropitious people are coming.”


Then the discussion turned to religion.  He said, “Christ got the Supreme Truth.  Mohammed also received some Truth but he was fanatic.  His ideals were sometimes very good.  Any religion must be dynamic. There were fanatics amongst Hindus too.  If a religion was static and might have had millions of followers even then it was useless.  See the Chinese.  In political philosophy they were static and a day may come when they would worship Marx and Lenin as Gods.  When the circumstances change, they never bothered about it.” I asked as to why communists monopolize the thought that they were the only emancipators of the poor.  Were not other isms conscious of it?  On this Baba said, “ If anybody has courage enough he should go and see what communism has done to helpless poor.  See how many were killed by Stalin.  One lady minister of England asked about it to Stalin and he replied, “Yes, I know many are being killed but many more will have to be killed.” ‘In the Chinese revolution more than twenty million people were butchered.  What type of the care of the downtrodden is this?’

We had valuable discussion on sexual attitude of Lord Krishna Vis a Vis Prophet Mohommed.  The ravages of Babylon and Nalanda, principle of four wives to a person in Islam, icon and fire worship and its hatred, common roots of all religions, common idea of God, hell and heaven, burning of incense, life and work of prophet Mohommed, how Islam imitated Judaism and Christianity, and how prophet Mohommed became iconoclast due to influence of Moses and Old Testament, circumcision like Jews and how attire put on at Haj pilgrimage of Kaba is like Buddhist monks, etc. I pointed that idea of hell and heaven originated in India and it was copied by all religions. He declined comments on certain issues and told specifically that all discussion on religion would be discussed and the issue being sensitive, its publication in future be dropped definitely and so I have omitted that part according to his wish and command too.

We came to jail system and criminals.  I pointed out that the Government had introduced games, recreation and holidays to go home for the criminals in jails.  Baba opined that this would increase their numbers.  He said give good food; health benefit and mainly psychological training but they must work hard to meet expenses incurred upon them.  I suggested that camps should be well guarded and they should be made to work on dams, highways, and other public projects.  He laughed and said “There was no problem about it but the Government was in a form to reform in sinister way.”

It was dark.  Moonlight shone and we were asked to leave for dinner.

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