Posted By Author on March 19, 2010


It was raining all night. I got up at 4 A.M. and meditated.  At 10 A.M. had bath and my soap swept away in the river.  Baba was sitting on chair near Ramanidada’s hut.  I was called and discussion started on various topics.  I asked him whether quietude of mind and ‘sthitapradnya’ described in Bhagwad Gita were one and the same. He said yes and recited verse that denoted symptoms of ‘Sthitapradnya’ from Gita.  Then we had a talk on ‘uparati’ (realisation.)

We discussed Raja Bhartruhari. I referred his Vairagya, Niti, and Srungar shataks. On Churchill he remarked that he did not deserve Nobel Prize.  There was no depth to his writing.  Even Bernard Shaw called him as second grade writer.  But Churchill had good qualities also.  He was master at repartee.  After conference at Malta while parting Stalin said to him, “We hope to meet in Berlin” Churchill retorted, “Yes, we on tanks and you in man-pulled car perhaps.”  In learning, Churchill was dull in childhood. His father saw him playing a game of war with dolls.  He was put in Sandhurst and after that he always stood first. He was prejudiced against India.  Then we chatted on ‘War and Peace’ of Tolstoy. He talked on real philosophical pleasure.  I told him my experience at home that I tried to be ‘sthithapradnya’ and my people called me shameless with no feeling.  He laughed and ratified that it was true.  He remarked, “A fool and a real philosopher apparently look alike.”
Gopal and Baba Tandon were called.  He talked with them and after they left Baba told me that he was going to withdraw all cases.  He said two more years might be required and recent incident had spoiled his seven years’ work.  Then he gave me the following note and later told me to read out to Shubir, Rajat and Ramanidada.


“Last night I surveyed whole range of work, physical, vital and mental.  The relative order brought into prevailing, chaos in the cosmic mental and the cosmic vital my seven years’ long hard labor has been shattered to pieces the other day.  The whole plan, which has been demolished, can only be rebuilt as I see into the whole thing now only by about two years’ hard labour in complete seclusion in the depth of the Himalayas.  If only the Divine Mother takes upon Herself the task of releasing some forces which has never been done in the present cycle of creation as much as those forces will be too strong for even the most advanced human being and as such I cannot visualize even the least chance of those forces being released then and then alone the span of time can be shortened. Otherwise for rebuilding the whole thing about two years hard labor will be my lot. I do not know, yes! I am at a loss to find how the thing already started will be managed before my labour bears any fruit in relation to reconstruction.  Each one of you will have to decide for yourself what course you now prefer to adopt.  Here intense sufferings are in store for you, physical, mental and what not. Now discuss the whole matter amongst yourselves,” I said, I was not afraid of suffering.  Beyond the feeling of human body what more suffering could exist, I asked. He laughed and said he tried his level best to request a saint to take rebirth but in vain. He tried a dozen times and yet the great saint refused to oblige. He was reluctant.  He said his friends in the Himalayas warned him not to try that but he did not listen. (Netaji had full faith in rebirth. See pages 118, 123, 126  of his autobiography. Also in his letter wife Emilie he wrote that he would definitely meet her in the present life or next life.)

I asked him that he could have continued his work and Ratan could have been punished later on.  He smiled and said that he thought his categorical orders would be obeyed after seven years’ teaching.  He thought that at least for the sake of love for him they would obey.  It was his silliness that he depended upon them.  It was meaningless to blame others.  I said for average person either intense love or intense fear of punishment could alone teach obedience.  He exclaimed, “You are perfectly right.  Out of the two intense love is innate it cannot be cultivated.  I thought I shall prepare one obedient batch by punishment and the followers would learn by tradition.” I observed that whipping was the only course left for improvement.  He said it was true and hence he wanted to segregate children and prepare them.  There was no alternative but to create one perfect generation.


I touched topic of national anthem “Jana gana mana’.  I knew it was initiated by INA. I pointed out the criticism that the song was addressed to King George the fifth on his arrival to India.  He vehemently opposed it and said Rabindranath Tagore gave prompt reply to this criticism in his Bengali poem and he recited the whole poem.  He explained the meaning of that poem that it was addressed to the Supreme God and King George was nothing before Him.   (The controversy lurks even today).  He then came in a mood to listen the National Anthem and told all of us to stand in line and sing it.  We complied.

I complained that in cinema theatres at the end the anthem was tuned but fifty percent audience was in the habit of leaving the hall.  Baba blurted, “They can see the rubbish thing for three long hours and cannot stand in silence for five minutes.”  However I referred to a movie on Netaji’s life in which some unrealistic and unauthenticated shots were depicted and Mr.Sengupta bitterly criticized it and demanded resignation of central minister of publicity Mr. Shah Nawaz Khan.  “Yes. I read it in the newspapers.  I heard that Netaji’s nephew and elder brother Suresh Bose have filed a suit against Govt. of India and producer, director.  The story writer will be criminally prosecuted.”   After this we discussed a psychic murderous couple of England and centenary of Ranade. I then requested Baba not to send telegram to Ramkrishnaji at Lucknow refraining him from sending money to Calcutta to run the cases.  I proposed the decision might be deferred to twenty forth.  He agreed and said, “I have tapped about two dozen channels but found no way to start work. I shall think more and try.”

At one P.M. we were relieved for lunch.  Rain started.  After writing diary, rested.  At late noon one of the Chakraborty brothers of Banaras arrived.  He told me that he did not meet Radhakantji at Lucknow on Monday, which was unbelievable.  Probably both arranged a drama so as not to offend Baba.  The weather was cool and windy.


In the evening Baba was sitting outside his fence on folding chair.  We assembled there.  He made observations on various subjects.  He remarked, “ Your attitude towards society must be like a tiger and not like a beggar. Then alone real work can be done real service to the suffering humanity is done.” He related a story of Badrinath temple. “ Once an old Brahmin of eighty years age came to the temple. Being last day gates were closed and a group of instrumental music player of the temple told the old Brahmin to return after one year when the gates shall be opened.  They left.  After sometime another Brahmin came and told the old man that the group that departed was telling lies.  He took him in the temple and in the evening played a game of dice with him.  Later he left promising to return in the morning.  In the morning the group of instrumental players arrived and asked the old Brahmin whether he stayed there for the whole year.  The old man told that he stayed only overnight.  The group realized that God Badrinath himself gave ‘darshan’ to him in the garb of another Brahmin.”

Baba further informed that Adya Shankaracharya wrote criticism of Gita and Upanishada at the age of twelve at this temple.” A place with his statue was shown to me later where Shankaracharya was last seen and then disappeared in snow. Shyamlal Pradhan’s son Ramprasad of Chunni was priest at the Kedarnath temple by tradition. He showed us the place. My wife, Prabhakar and his wife were accompanying me. Baba told a humorous story of Rabindranath Tagore. “Chiang Kai-Shek of China invited him. A banquet was arranged in his honor. As a special favor hundreds of years old pickle was served. It smelled like rotten rat.  Those who accompanied him from India had to swallow it as Gurudeo partook.  At destination everybody questioned him as to how he swallowed it and hence they had too.  Gurudeo opened his gown and showed that he slipped it there and avoided.”

Tagore was connoisseur of oriental and occidental taste bud titling dishes and would collect its recipes. There is a restaurant in Kolkata that serves Tagore’s culinary indulgences.
Baba said, “I told to get two blankets of low cost instead of one soft and costly one. “ They were brought.  He told me that I committed a mistake.  He preferred two cotton blankets to one rough woolen because it rubs and itches body.  I was not aware of it, I confessed.

I wrote diary for three hours, dined and slept at 10 P.M.

Got up at 4 A.M. Meditation.  Cramp in stomach and vomited. It was probably the reaction of yesterday’s heavy meal. It rained at night and morning was cloudy.  Cold winds were active. After cold bath I had to wrap blankets to warm up. Pundit from Vidyapith came.  He told that Director of Education of U.P. had come there and he wanted permission to visit Baba.  I told him I would consult.  I waited outside his hut and after long time he came out from his meditation. He was to take early meals.  He called me and asked about Shivacharan Chakraborty. I told him about message of Director of Education, U.P. and his desire to come.  Baba thought over and said, ”It will be sheer wastage and futility of time.  He cannot execute whatever comes out of discussion and it will be sheer table talk.  Better say no.“ I expressed that in spite of strong will such people could not implement their ideas due to Government’s restrictions.  I quoted example of my Guru Dr.C.D.Deshpande, the Director of Education of Maharashtra, as to how his bold decisions were unpalatable to the Government. C.D. once called upon secretary of education of Maharashtra Mr.Deo formerly in Army. I was accompanying C.D. He demanded cars for the education department of Maharashtra. Mr.Deo callously dodged the proposal by saying that he was only concerned with the salary he drawn. C.D. gave a rebuff saying that his case was different. As an expert on India he could earn more than his salary in India or abroad. Deo was crestfallen. Cars were sanctioned for the first time. Baba remarked, “Suresh, remember those who talk boldly are far better than flatterers.  When Niharendu was Law Minister, he suggested name of one District Judge for Secretary’s post but Bidhanchandra Roy said that he was arrogant. Niharendu told that because he expressed his opinion and did not yield to seniors in wrong things you call him so.  Anyhow finally he was appointed.  Great courage is required in speaking boldly.  Always kick flatterers.”


Baba narrated a story of Newton, ”He was twelve years old.  On way to school he and other boys used to pump the bellows of one blacksmith.  One day the school bell rang and all left.  The blacksmith told Newton that he was very good boy and even if he went to the school two hours late his teacher would do nothing to him and Newton waited and went after two hours but his teacher boxed him. He then used to say, ‘Remember whenever any one praises you be sure that he wants to grind his axe.’ It became a phrase in English.


Baba narrated another story of Chittod’s durbar (court).  “There was one Sardar (knight) named Dukhasingh. He had no son but he had a beautiful daughter named Satyawati. He taught her art of war and sword fighting. Once son of Rana (king) of Chittod saw her during his hunting spree.  He proposed her hand for himself to Dukhasingh.  Father said he would not mind but there was a condition that would be husband should defeat her in sword fight.  The Prince was defeated in the fight but even then the Prince went to Dukhasingh and again proposed her.  Dukhasingh was enraged. Once a Rajput is enraged he loses all senses.  Dukhasing chopped off the Prince’s head and packed the body in a box.  Out of repentance, to get punishment for himself, he went to the court with the box.  The king stood up to receive him and tried to embrace him but Dukhasingh avoided him and told the story and opened the box and showed him the dead body of his son.  The Rana thanked him and told him that he kept the honour of Chittod.”  While hearing the story I had goose flesh (goose bumps). I showed horripilation on my arms to Baba and asked why it so happened.  He said,” It is a good sign. It is because one becomes fully concentrated with the story and its feelings. I used to have it often in my childhood.”

He then enquired about my rising time, duration of meditation and advised to give more time and concentrate deeply.  I asked him that while witnessing a tragic movie or reading I wept but while seeing actual tragic scene it never happened.  He explained that it was the effect of environment.  At the time of movie or reading full concentration was there and hence the symptoms.  It was a good sign and that in his childhood he too experienced it. He went in for his meal and soon came out.  Talk continued.  It was 11 A.M. and getting hot.  So we moved in shade near Ramanidada’s hut. Shivacharan Chakraborty joined.  He got mild reprimand.  Gopal and Tandon also joined.  He told a few stories which I already heard.  Tandon asked Baba whether any great religious man would arrive.  He chided him that people themselves were responsible for degradation of religion and questioned him whether it would improve if Jana Sangh came to power in his state.  Karapatri Maharaj was promising flood of milk and honey if his party Ramrajya Parishad came to power, he observed derisively.  He stressed that man must be changed and that in the world, politicians were the first hindrance to peace.  Others went for lunch and I continued talk without food.

We discussed lot of topics for a pretty long time.  He told Churchill’s repartee, “In his young age Churchill used to maintain moustaches.  He wrote something on philosophy.  A young lady commented that his philosophy was like his moustache and Churchill retorted, “do not worry young lady.  You will not come in contact with either philosophy or moustaches”.

The calf of our cow was serious and as we were intimated, both of us rushed there.  The calf was convulsing and emitting hiccups.  He gave quick direction and we implemented it.  Shubir was preparing medicinal mud. Shomu held an umbrella, Ramanidada was fanning, I was staving off flies, Haribandhu was applying layers of mud on neck and stomach and Sukumar was wrapping bandage.  I was sure that the calf would pop off.  It was a miracle. Convulsions ceased and it was breathing normal. After leaving two persons for care we returned to discussion. Shivacharanji rejoined.


I suggested that if the country was divided into four zones the integration and administration would be better. Baba said he had five zones in mind with sub zones. There would be Administrative Officers for each zone.  There would be only Central Ministry with Deputy Ministers.  Their job would be to prepare plans. Administrative Officers would execute the plans and there would be Intelligence branch, which would detect delays, flaws, corruption, etc.  Baba revealed that Niharendu once saw his plan of Rural Development. (At Shantiniketan Rabindranath Tagore advised young Subhash and his friends to do Rural Development. See his view on rural reconstruction and self-sufficiency of villages on P. 191 – E) He appreciated it but remarked that the Government would bring impediments in its execution.

Baba laughed and said, “ It is the common and general human tendency to put spokes in any good work otherwise why poor Kennedy would have died.  It is my conviction that conspiracy to kill him was hatched by millionaires and the scheme was finalized in Washington.  Attempt was made on my life too.  A man with All India License of a revolver entered Ashram with diabolic intention but he was caught and beaten and handed over to the police.  A strong letter was written to Nehru but no reply ever came.  I knew one fellow to be of Nehru’s intelligence department but I purposely admitted him and made him administrative head in the Ashram so that world shall know the reality.  Ultimately with all invectives he was driven out.”  Baba then added, “What the present ministers are doing?  They will even inaugurate latrines.  No one knows administration except signing.  Real democracy and real head can definitely bring reform.  If head is alright, administration must become right.”

I proposed that there should be a ministry of complaint and suggestion.  I narrated how women were misused in remand homes and homes for destitute girls. He observed, “Government will never do constructive work.”  I pointed that seventy five percent sanctioned amount of plans was defalcated by politicians, contractors, administrators and businessmen.  He related his funny experience. “A bridge was being constructed.  I made three rounds around it and estimated its cost not more than nine lakh and the amount spent was shown to be Rs. seventeen lakhs.  I feel one bridge should be demolished and its actual cost should be calculated.  It does not matter if cost of one bridge will be a loss but it will be a lesson to all engineers of the country.” I told a story of one minister Gadhe and how he took away things right from ghee without payment and to meet cost, the forest officer sold logs unofficially.  He remarked that honest people were not needed and that they would suffer in the then Government.

I also related a story of inspector Chande. He was a man of confidence of Vallabhbhai Patel. He was sent to Hyderabad for reconnaissance to collect information on belligerent Kasim Rizvi, the Prime Minister of Nizam. Nizam was administratively impotent and virtually in house arrest. Kasim Rizvi was all in all. He formed ‘Razzakars’ who were fanatic atrocious Muslim fighter. Mr. Chande managed to become confidential driver of Kasim Rizvi and while delivering secret files he microfilmed them. Once Kasim Rizvi told him to drive the car to certain famous red light area. Mr. Chande knew not it. Kasim realised the driver was not from Hyderabad but a spy. He told him to take car back home and after putting car in garage see him immediately. Mr.Chande knew he was to be shot down. He escaped from garage and ran upto Kanhergaon on Maharashtra border. He immediately informed Vallabhbhai about the date of ‘Katle Aam’ of Hindus by Razzakars. Vallabhbhai took prompt action and launched military invasion a week before the date of ‘Katle Aam’. (Date of en masse massacre of Hindus)

Baba remarked, “Vallabhbhai has saved India from Balkanization. He amalgamated all private states in India. Otherwise map of India would have appeared as a sieve.”  Baba then related a story of young Italian officer of Italian Embassy who was murdered because he was going to reveal a big racket of defalcation in which hands of ministers were involved.  Although murdered in India, Nehru did nothing to unearth the crime.  He died for our country but of what use it was?” lamented Baba.  A rape on a Russian girl in Bhilai and other stories were discussed. Then jocularly Baba asked Gopal whether he was going to meet Maj. Badrinath and exclaimed to him my simile of Capt Kedarnath, Maj. Badrinath.

I enquired whether it was true that Nehru was in love with sister of Feroze Gandhi who was inspectress of schools at Allahabad.  Baba smiled and admitted that he knew not anything. I revealed rumours about amorous relationship between Nehru and Edwina Mountbatten. I said after Kamala’s death Nehru sacrificed by not marrying again. Baba instantly shot back, “Gandhiji saved him.  He wanted to marry Mrudula Sarabhai.  Out of disgust and revenge she joined hands with Sheikh Abdulla.  She was a traitor. ‘What to tell about Nehru!’  At the time of partition in one ‘paragana’ (region) there were more than five lakh Hindus and Buddhist and Muslims were in thin minority and even then the region was ceded to Pakistan. [L.K. Advani has mentioned similar case of district in Sindh in his autobiography] Nehru later said he knew not about it.  What is the meaning of this? Look at the British. They warned that if a single drop of white blood were shed, they (Africans) would see the fun. Such bold threats are required.  When the Hindus retaliated in Bihar, Nehru sent Afghan soldiers’ regiment there.  They ruthlessly shot even children.  Was it befitting to Nehru?”

I narrated murder of Usha Bhargav of Jabalpur and firing by Army Officer Budhasingh.  He again referred Nehru. “Before leaving the mortal body, Aurobindo Ghosh warned Nehru that the real danger would be coming from the north but he did not pay any attention to him.  He treated the whole nation as if it was his personal property. He further observed, ” Followers of some ministers go in advance and arrange their grand reception.”  When I touched about Vinoba Bhave, he uttered that he was a total failure.  He had seen his disciples erecting welcome gates in advance.  The land problem of India was not easy, he commented.


Baba said to be a great man four requisites were indispensable and dictated the note:
“One sure sign of great man which Nehru was lacking is—‘A greatness always goes to the problem instead of waiting for a problem to come to him.’

“Now, Suresh find out the psychological points with sufficient enumeration and elucidation that really make a great man go to the problems at their roots. Four things are essential to become really great. They are:
(1) genius (2) talent (3) integrity (4) vision.”

“Genius is inborn.  Talent can be inborn or it is to be cultivated.  Broadly speaking talent is an organ through which genius is expressed.  It has applied value. It is not necessary that whenever there is a genius there is a talent.  Genius deprived of talent is helpless and useless. Without integrity the remainder are useless. (IV) Vision is indispensable for quick and correct decisions, policies, and planning.”

(Subhash Bose described three essential prerequisites to become a great man in his letter No.23 dated 31/8/1915 on P147 of autobiography. They are: (i) Embodiment of the past  (ii) Product of the present (iii) Prophet of the future. He further adds, ”Nobody who is not eccentric can attain greatness. But all eccentric people do not become great men.”)

“Imposition is one of the necessary things for a great man but it must be used carefully.  Imposition is to make in such a way that person on whom imposition is made should not become conscious of it. Here lies the great skill and art.  Swami Vivekananda was a great skillful impositioner but people never became conscious of it. I am, however, constrained to say that in spite of his greatness and in spite of the fact that for ages the world has not seen a man like Gandhiji, he miserably lacked this quality.  Remember that imposition is and must be used only for correction of others and not to satisfy self ego.”

I queried whether Gandhiji met his doom because he was unable to implement the art of imposition.  He answered…
“In a sense you are right.  He used to impose but those who were being imposed used to become very conscious of it.  He perhaps met his doom due to this.  However, his greatness no one can deny.  Life of a great man is always full of self-contradiction and a great man like Gandhi, the world has not seen for ages.  Jawaharlal and Vallabhbhai Patel never understood him.  No. They had not the capacity to know Gandhiji.”

Today I had a marathon talk from 11 A.M. to 5.30 P.M.  It was most lively discussion but minor points have gone unrecorded.  Baba said that he drank at least two liters of water during discussion.  “My tongue falters and throat dries now a days while talking continuously.  I was of course never a stammerer in my life.  My right ear is completely impaired. The left one is all right.  I am using Yogic power to pull on this body.  Some one else in my place would have left long back.”

He then told me to send a telegram to Ratan to bring Mosambi.  He told that most probably from next day he would close himself for twenty days and might not see or talk with anyone.  He knew I was without food and instructed to bring lemon juice for me and told to do cooking early.  I denied. He told to bring my newly purchased handloom saris and distributed to Gita, Kalyani and Dipali.  He proposed to purchase more from Okhimath for Uma and Jayanti.

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